Permission to Stop Hiding Parts of Yourself
The one part of myself I’ve hidden for years—and why I’m done hiding it.
I’ve hidden a significant part of myself for years. I’ve been scared of what people who know me would think if I showed up as my full self.
Would they accept me? Shun me? Judge me? Or is this all in my head because of my Catholic guilt?
I’ve written about relationships, mindset, and self-love. I’ve penned personal essays and poems about men I’ve loved, lusted after, and lost. I’ve published romance novellas with explicit sex scenes (masturbation and orgasms included), yet I’ve kept one topic private: tarot.
Tarot has been part of my life since I was 15 years old.
That’s when I purchased my first deck and began reading for friends and myself. I admit that I misused tarot for many years. I clung to card meanings and their predictions, deferred to the cards before making decisions, and obsessively read tarot until I pulled the cards that satisfied the story I wanted to play out. That was a different version of me.
Now that I am self-trusting and self-loving, I’ve learned how to read tarot as an intuitive guide, and I’ve been reading successfully for clients—and on YouTube and TikTok—for over two years.
I hid this part of me by using a different name.
I was so scared of being discovered that I initially read tarot on YouTube and only showed my hands.
I was afraid of being shunned because I grew up Catholic; mysticism and divination tools are seen as the devil’s work.
I worried that people who knew the “old me” would judge this new direction.
I thought the only way to be accepted was to separate this part of who I am.
But hiding is exhausting.
Hiding parts of ourselves means we think there is something wrong with who we are.
We can’t fragment ourselves and expect to feel whole.
We can’t hide and expect to feel free.
And so I am showing up, fully myself, with a full chest, as exactly who I am:
an intuitive
a tarot reader
a romance writer
a personal essayist
a mother
a friend, sister, cousin, and daughter
a karaoke queen
a creative
a woman who fully embraces all parts of herself
a woman who wishes the same for all of you…and who is always here to help guide you
Your turn: What’s one part of yourself you’ve been hiding that you’re finally ready to reveal? Drop it in the comments.